Update #3 ~ HELP!

Hey guys, super sorry I've been mega inactive lately. Been really busy lately, and good news is I finally got a desktop so, hopefully I'll have more time to post and keep y'all updated and stuff. Also, I believe I haven't let y'all in on the good news...anyways, I've been accepted a a state finalist! I'm super excited and happy and just can't wait. Anyways, but with being accepted and actually doing it, it is a bit pricey and am hoping to raise some money on my own using sponsors; so, in short, if y'all could please donate, it would mean allot to me and my family. Also, every bit counts so, if you wish to donate just a dollar or so it'd be helping me plenty. I will keep y'all updated in on the progress and hopefully i'll be able to reach my goal by April or July.
Link to go donate: http://www.gofundme.com/n211c0

Update #2

Hey guys! I should probably be doing homework right now but, currently being annoyed by my cold sore-.-

Anyways, pulling off an all nighter tonight, so explains why I'm blogging at this time. Tomorrow I have a ortho appointment and am kind of anxious due to uh fact that I haven't worn my bands in we'll never actually😭😭. Scared my orthodontist May YALL or get mad at me😳.

But in the other hand, I'm almost finished with my assignments so yes, I got this and well bye since I do really have to go do the rest of my homework and my phones about to die..

Almost is Never Enough

I'm sorry, I guess I just weren't what you were looking for. I feel like such an idiot for actually thinking all of this, but silly me I was just getting in over my head. I can't believe I actually let myself believe any of this; I completely let my guard down. I feel cursed, this wasn't supposed to happen and I know it; none of this was ever supposed to happen. As I sit here typing I feel completely worthless; I let you get in my mind and well, I'm never going to be the same person ever again.
You're probably just sitting there laughing at what a fool I must be, but the joke's on you darling...for you will never find someone with the same devotion as I. Go ahead, say all you wish about me; just know that I'm only human and I did not wish for this to happen. I never really as the type to move on easily or be apart of this 'hook up' generation. I guess you could say i'm a classic but, that's not what you wished for. I'm not mad. How could I ever be mad at you? It's not in me to hold anger for immense amounts of times...But, i'm not exactly happy, and well, that's not something even you can change. I've been cursed with this demon for quite some time and well, I've learned to ignore it for the most part but, it's still there. If you still want me, I'm here...I'll always be here for you. Just know that this emptiness is void in which nothing will ever be able to fill. I'm sorry I wasn't what you may have wanted but, darling I refuse to change for your acceptance. I love you, and if you can't accept me for myself then, we must never be.

Update #1

Finally done with grades! Well not literally, but at least a new six weeks is beginning and I can have a bit more of sanity back within me. Just one more week and then I can hopefully finally finish everything I've been procrastinating on. Can't wait, even though I don't plan on eating any turkey. (Yes, I am a vegetarian by the way.) Probably just gonna look up some recipes and make em...speaking of food, I'm hungry right now. 

Anyways, just wanted to get on here and update it a bit; might as well write a blog post, right? Well, I can't think of anything else to say so bye and see y'all next week.

Latest Update

I am extremely sorry for not starting on this or even thinking about it..been slacking way too hard lately. But, I'm currently studying hardcore for my exam tomorrow so hopefully I'll have some time in between exams and assignments. Yes, if you're wondering I am still in high school; currently a sophomore and working my way up till graduation even though it pretty far away in retrospect. the reason for always being so busy is mainly AP World History...when I signed up I had NO idea what the work load was going to be like or even how to study or anything! I was practically a newbie with my very limited knowledge on any of the material being covered. But, despite such hardships, I actually quite enjoy the challenge...my goals isn't to become valedictorian or to even pass all classes with straight A's; although,  wouldn't complain if it were to happen, the only goal I have for myself is to try my hardest and learn to comply with myself. Grades mean nothing if there's no learning going on behind it. Personally, allot of my classmates are obsessed with grades so they can get into there dream school, etc. Grades or test scores for matter of fact don't even determine a person's amount of intelligence...I can pretty much assure you, we don't know the 'real' reason behind any of the information we receive. Sure, we can discuss it and use it to the best of our abilities to pass a quiz or two but, what does that really matter? I have high aspirations for myself, and I don't care what a grade says about me...nothing depicts/and or applies to me but my own opinion. I'd rather make straight c's and know what's actually going on than to force my grades. 

Anyways, I wasn't planning on ranting today but I guess I just have (lol). I just wanted to get on here and finally say I from now on will start blogging onto this blog. So, 'what is this blog going to be about?' Well, I guess you could say a little bit about everything; as long as I can write and express myself through words, I'm happy. So, from the top of my head i'm thinking of blogging over a few topics in mind (aka): health, beauty, equal rights, my own opinions and reviews, etc. Oh and I'm also thinking of just making this a whenever possible things so don't expect a post every day or at a certain time at a certain day since, I do get writers block sometimes. Either way, I will be using this blog from now on; I just wanted to get on here and give a final report as to whether I will or not be using it.